By: Titi Akaroh

Being lost is the worst state to be in.

Falling in a bottomless pit that no one can see it,

Drowning at the bottom while others are floating at the top.

My lungs are slowly compressing… won’t be long before my heart starts to stop.

I tried to come to church and get into His word,

But my voice was so weak, it wasn’t strong enough to be heard.

I did worldly things to try and find the answer to my equation,

Little old me didn’t know who to put my faith in.

In my mind I was too broken to amount to anything,

So I joined the choir… MAYBE I CAN SING?…

But since I lost my faith it didn’t mean one thing.

As I walked into the church I felt all eyes on me…

Constantly judging me, but what I was is something the eyes cannot see,

A broken, lost, confused teenager longing to be free.

Wanting to shout and lift my hands, but I had no idea what I was doing.

Looking for someone to solve my problem,

But I can tell you Christ isn’t what I was pursuing.

Digging for the root of my problem while standing at the surface,

Well God revealed himself to me at this New Generation service.

Little did I know, it was the turning point in my life.

Got brought my dead spirit finally to life.

We have been taught that being good enough will get you through the pearly gates,

But no matter how good you are your efforts are a waste.

For if you don’t have Jesus then you’re just running in place.

So I thank God for bringing me here today,

Where I am young and praising God with no shame.

Where I am free to jump, scream, and shout

Without being told I should be quiet or eve to calm down.

I’m so glad I’m able to cry and be free,

And be able to stand here in front of you all and be a living witness and testify all God as done for me.

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